A very merry TSF weekend...

Well, after a pretty good super bowl weekend, I've come to some conclusions. I'll give a little recap of what went on first.

Saturday I helped Op2 move into his new room with some dumb 11 chuck. Of course, he's still always welcome at the TSF House and I suspect he'll make frequent appearances. It was great having him stay at the house, but considering he doesn't have a car and our schedules are different, this will make things a little easier. After that we just chilled until Rojo came back. Then we proceeded to mess ourselves up with whiskey sours and religion wars. It was totally what I needed.

Today was a good day. After recovering in the morning by taking tylenol and drinking coffee, Op2 and I headed to my soldier's house for the super bowl. He's a great guy and I can't wait until he makes Sergeant. Right now, I treat him like my ATL... he's kinda like the Poke to my Iceman. haha. Anyways, i had a great time joking with the guys, playing with Pay Pay's dogs and wrestling with the kids.

So.. all in all it was what I would call a "cleansing" weekend. I've decided that I'm done. Done trying at all when it comes to my personal life. The only results I have gotten are negative and I'm sick of it. I have a job that stresses me out and keeps me too busy to be worrying about all this other crap. I want to re-focus. I want to re-establish my bonds with my good friends who aren't here in Louisiana. I want to begin studying Spanish and American Sign Language. I want to engage in productive activities that will contribute to my physical and emotional health. Now, if someone comes along and it works. I'm completely open to it. I'm not taking myself out of the game. I'm just gonna sit in the background and stop trying so hard. It just all hurts too much.

Now I hope I can live up to these words. History has shown that I tend to stray towards masochism. And I'll admit that sometimes I voluntarily engage in activities that I know will cause me emotional pain. Don't worry, I'm not a cutter or anything like that. So I will continue to pray and search for guidance from the Lord. Other than that, I'll continue doing my job and being awesome. I am TSF, after all.

TSF Op1- Trenches, out.